Oh dear. I am sorry to read that. I can understand how disappointing that must feel. I hope you find another alternative for a first retreat as soon as possible. With mettā.
Thanks for the metta. I explained my condition in more detail so I don’t know if it will work. I’ll guess I’ll see. The other monetary I thought about going to doesn’t have retreats but do let you stay overnight up to two weeks. They do have Dhamma talks but I don’t know if it’s in English. No phone just email. For lack of better words, I think they’re more hardcore than the other. 3hr trip
Don’t try to achieve anything. Have no expectations. Just enjoy the free time. Some extra coffee helps as well
A short stay in a monastery might be a good option. Less formal than a retreat.