It is a natural tendency of the mind, certainly my mind, that it takes delight in well structured things, for example well structured ideas, thoughtsystems, well structured fridge, well organised life, well organised daytime etc. It delights in having everything nicely in order. Physically and also mentally. There is a fondness for order, well structured or organised. That it experiences as ‘good’, and ‘happiness’.
I think this is also a kind of symptomatic for the grasping mind. Seeking safety and feeling good in structure, in order. This mind only calms down when everything is nicely organised, also Dhamma knowledge. But i do not think that this is real calm and also not real clarity.
It is very hard to deal with this tendency when one, like me, is of this disposition and fondness for order. Happily i can also delight in a bit of chaos. I have a friend who cannot relax a moment in having not a to do list. His need for a goal, for structure, for order, totally rules his life.
Is it not strange the mind has such a hard time just to relax in not having a to do list? Like it needs a carrot for the noose all the time. A need for a goal.
For the mind who is fond of structure and order it is hard to let go. It is also very hard for this mind not processing things, not digesting info, not utilizing info. It is always taking in and digesting info.
It is not that it happens all very intentionally. But it is tiresome and costs a lot of energy and often sleep too because the mind is always digesting and organising and controlling if everything is allright (i.e. in order)
Somehow we have to find a way that we do not take all in without blocking senses. What we do not take in, we also do not have to digest again and again. And i also believe we have to tackle this need for structure, for organizing again and again, this fondness for order.