You take no prisoners heh !
Thank you for your thorough answer. May I press further ? You spent a considerable amount of time researching/writing a lot of buddhist areas and thought and produce a lot of high quality content. Is this solely out of a passion for researching this particular field or are you trying to get to the bottom of it all to practice as close as possible to what was the original teaching (if there was any) ? In fewer words, are you a Buddhist scholar or a scholar of Buddhism ?
I ask because if you consider yourself a buddhist I wonder out of all your research which practices ended up fitting your criteria, ticks the most boxes, so that you implemented it ?
I see a potential danger/flaw in your attitude (english is not my native language so just know that “attitude” here carries absolutely no antagonism from me) Indeed, looking for answers and questioning everything takes an awful lot of time and seems like a never ending project. So the risk of staying side-lined increases exponentially as times goes by. Is it something you worry about ?
I think there is probably a reason why the Buddha describe faith as one of the five spiritual powers. Without it, you can’t really make the jump, there is a certain anguish in that. At some point I guess a pinch of blind faith is needed. Either that or you need to come face to face with an enlightened being, displaying mind bending siddhis which would dispels all doubts.
If you’re not interested in Buddhism and are in fact a scholar of Buddhist, then thank you very much for your top notch research !
As of me, as a tibetan translator, i spent a lot of time pondering matters of authenticity, lineage and traditions. After a lot of time spent (wasted?) I decided to give a fair chance to the pali canon and its teaching. I of course saw that there was a lot of competing interpretive apparatus, and ended up choosing the one which (imho) was the closest to what I could read in the Nikaya and was coherent without needing to bend words to account for textual difficulties or apparent contradictions within the suttas. I must say this has been extremely rewarding but I’m still fighting non stop my doubting nature, you’re not helping on this part