I am not sure whether this post is appropriate here , whether it is fine to ask some kind of religious or personal advice . I have also been thinking of posting this at dhammawheel but I have encountered some very right leaning people who have disagreeable opinions on women to say the least , so here I am . I was the one who posted earlier this year about slavery in the Sangha and I am very much thankful for the elucidations .Funnily or sadly most of my questions are about doubts and I hope that I dont sound like a broken record , I hope for patience and understanding However that question was brought about because of a crisis in faith due to among other things : Buddha’s opinion on women( Which I understand is on uneven footing ) , Pandaka and Slavery and Caste.
I come from a very Christian nation , and that as I grew up I also grew away from Christianity. For years I was kind of agnostic until I stumbled upon Buddhism. I may have idealized it in my mind as somehow progressive , I admit thats my fault. Like how the Buddha is against slavery(Trading) but to later learn he is also against ordaining slaves etc. For a year or two I became a kind of fervent believer in the dharma but then last year I came across AN.7.63 . Which caused a rabbit hole dive into this forum and reading up like this issue or that
In DN 30 Gotama wished in a former life for the benefit of ‘people’ (bahujanassa atthakāmo) and that they would flourish in “wealth and grain, fields and land, birds and beasts, children and wives; in dāsakammakaraporisa s (i.e. slaves-workers-servants); in family, friends, and kin”. In this sutta ‘people’ are elite men, neither women nor the lower class. (similarly in SN 3.19, AN 3.70, AN 5.42, AN 5.148, AN 8.38, AN 9.20, AN 10.23, AN 10.74, MN 26, MN 66).
( I apologize I have cannot blockquote wherein I can include the poster , my apologies Gabriel)
So now my new perspective is that I may have been projecting modern values to ancient times but somehow the thought of the " Blessed One, the Exalted One, the fully Enlightened One" doesnt correlate with the thought of the Buddha saying misogynistic things or the Pandaka banning or the slave banning. Yes , I understand that it could be contextualized and understood in the lens of the past but I cannot reconcile it with the thought of a perfectly enlightened being saying and doing those things. Although maybe at the end of the day I have just to accept that he is just a product of his time . I think that I may have projected modern values to him and now I am in this conundrum of my own making .
My question probably is how do you handle doubts when facing issues like that ? How do you reconcile the Buddha that teaches Metta but bans Pandaka ? In the meantime I would be reading the suttas and would be mulling it over.