Hello Nadine,
Well, as a longtime blogger, I have written a couple of pieces about this process of discernment, though at this point I feel like I could write an entire book about it! 
After decades of Mahayana practice, I found that I had to go through a detailed process of examining views and assumptions, and leaving many of them behind. I’m reminded of Georgia O’Keeffe saying,
I said to myself, ‘I have things in my head that are not like what anyone has taught me - shadows and ideas so near to me - so natural to my way of being and thinking…’ I decided to start anew, to strip away what I had been taught.
So, if you would like to read the blog posts, you will find them here:
Konin’s blog post “Thoughts on the Bhikkhuni Life”
and
Konin’s blog post “Not by an Act of Will”
The second one is the more recent one.
I’d be interested to hear what you think and how it relates to your own path, @Nadine