Thank you for looking out for me, … but I’m not a Buddhist
I’m not inclined tho to read anything from any source and just take it as gospel coz someone said so. It’s not a choice, it’s just how I am. Most of the time, I am generally left looking for answers after experiences have already happened that I had no context for at the time, … and it’s great when I find things after the fact coz I don’t need to have ‘faith’ - they’re just confirmations or elaborations. I can tho lend some leeway if I see a lot of truth surrounding something. Eg: I have not seen a Naga, but I’ll accept them on the strength of other aspects.
Possibly not the best approach coz sometimes the searches for the texts to back up whatever I have arrived at take years … and a few things have thrown up major hurdles that are going to require explanations to move fwd with, … but on the other hand tho, I like knowing my mind is no longer constrained by any pre- conceived ideas. It works well for me anyway - it got me here after all so I guess I’m doing alright on my quest for truth so far
I KNOW a lot of Buddhism is right, but natural law is what it is, it existed before man defined it, & it does not need me to put myself in a ‘Buddha box’ ( that’s a South Park reference - IYKYK) with a neat label and bow. It doesn’t care - it just is -no matter what I call myself.
Currently, I don’t find my experiences quite fitting in any one box - not neatly anyway. I’d love to be able to have a straight talking conversation with an appropriate person about it all and get some more clarity - but I can’t see a context in which that is going to be able to happen.
It’s not going to matter tho if I put a hand in a Hindu box and rummage around to see what I pull out too. I’ve looked in many places and not taken many things on board. If I don’t already know it to be truth I’ll either discard it (if I know it’s wrong) or put it on the shelf of possibilities I can’t confirm or deny, … and sometimes I’ll go yay that makes sense instead.
If there is one thing I learnt from having my staunch atheism flipped on its face much to my shock, it is to never close my mind to possibilities … and never decide I know something without knowing it first hand - nor absolute parameters about something either. I’m not going to box my mind in ever again. I was very wrong when I did that.
I’m happy to sit with my Spiritualist label for now tho - it doesn’t tell me what I have to think or where else I can/ can’t find truths. I don’t need to cling to a belief system. I might just end up a non- denominational truth seeker - who knows lol