I’ve been having some beautiful meditation experiences these days when the mind feels clearer, lighter and more inclined toward calm and kindness. These experiences feel real, not just theoretical.
At the same time, I was raised in a Christian environment, and one thing I’ve come to understand more clearly as an adult is that Christianity places a central emphasis on salvation through Christ — being saved by Christ’s grace, sacrifice, and redemptive act.
In contrast, as far as I understand Buddhism, there is no need to “believe” that the Buddha saves you. Liberation is something one gradually realizes through one’s own practice, ethical refinement, and the progressive reduction of greed, hatred, and delusion. The Buddha points the way; he does not carry you to the destination nor do you have to believe in him.
I once watched a talk by a well-known Buddhist monk who said that he had been invited to give a talk in an Anglican church. Someone asked him whether it was appropriate for him, as a Buddhist monk, to bow before Jesus. His reply was that he bows not to a dogma, but to the qualities he deeply respects in Jesus: compassion, self-sacrifice, moral courage etc. and that bowing to those qualities does not contradict being a Buddhist.
So here is what I have been thinking and pondering about.
Would it be reasonable, or completely confused, to “hedge my bets”, so to speak, by remaining culturally and socially Christian (keeping my friends, my community, my shared language, my dancing evenings with Christian friends which would not be happening if I were in a Buddhist community), while sincerely practicing meditation and ethical cultivation (sila) as taught in Buddhism?
In other words:
If Christianity is true, then I am saved by Christ anyway.
If Buddhism is true, then my meditation practice and reduction of greed and hatred are genuinely moving me closer to liberation, independently of whether I go to church.
If one day deep meditation leads to a clearer insight aligned with Buddhism, I could then consciously commit more fully with a final switch.
Is this a pragmatic and compassionate way to live, or is it fundamentally misunderstanding both traditions?
Is faith something that must be exclusive and total from the beginning, or can sincere practice, ethical transformation, and lived experience legitimately come first, even if that means inhabiting an uncomfortable middle ground?
Losing my Christian friends and giving up so many activities I enjoy like dancing doesn’t seem to be very compassionate towards myself, but I don’t want to stop meditating either nor to do something unacceptably inconsistent.