Buddha discovered that our subjective world or experience is like a temporary construction relying on many conditions. Conditions like hate, greed, jalousy, doubts, perception of I am (ego) are like pigments which colour the mind, including its natural understanding, its sensititiy, its natural wisdom. Buddha saw this clearly because he knew the pigment free mind. He knew very well what is adventitious and not.
Our subjective world, the way we experience ourselves, others, situations, arises in the moment as a result of many conditions. Our subjective world changes all the time rapidly in colour and in content.
But what we often forget or tend to forget is to see that it is all Paticca Samuppada, conditionally arising in the very moment. It is has no essence. It is not essential, it is just a temporary building or construction. It also decays, disintegrates again. We can be sad the one moment and glad the other.
This is, i believe, seeing Paticca Samuppada in this very life. It is not different from seeing anicca, dukkha and anatta. It is seeing that our subjective world is any moment a creation, constructed by many factors like lobha, dosa, moha and other mental buildingblocks.
But while this is not very difficult to see, we as humans still treat this inner world as essential. We as humans can become extremely angry when others do not take it seriously. We can become demons when our opinions are not heard, our emotions not seen, our feelings not acknowledged, our great wisdom overlooked. WOW…what can we become mad. Demon-like. Why?
Our sense of identity is very closely related to it, right? This subjective world, although without essence, is experienced as ‘this is me, mine, my self’. That is how it becomes extremely essential and important.
This is the real obstacle. Why can’t we let go? Because this inner world, so rapidly changing, mere a constructing, not really substantial and essential, liable to arise, cease and change, is still felt, seen, experienced, known as essential me, as mine, my self. That gives it a huge load. While the load is in fact a burden, we are also resistent to let go, because it is so closely related to our sense of me, mine, my self. It is like we defend our own suffering.
I think it is an sich not bad or evil. I think that demanding this kind of attention for ones inner world constisting of opinions, views, interpretations, ideas, emotions, feelings, wisdom is an invitation to investigate what is going here.
What i see is that it often deal with wounds. We all seem to have this wound of demanding attention for the inner world. I think it is very deep and goes back to our most early years when we are unable to survive without getting attention of our parents. It is a kind of primal instinct. There is so much passion involved in this demanding attention for our inner world which is known and being expressed as me, mine, my self.