Just wondering if anyone would like to share what might trigger this feeling for them? One trigger for me is listening to George Harrison’s “My Sweet Lord”. Although it’s about Krishna, I can relate so strongly to that urge of how much you would like to be close to that in which you have faith (for us, the Buddha). Although I’ve read all 4 Nikayas and so much more, I would trade all that in to hear directly just one teaching of the Buddha in person. Obviously that can’t happen, and so I experience, what I would call this ‘painful spiritual feeling’. Hearing “My Sweet Lord” makes me feel this way. It brings a tear to me eye.