Under narcosis there is no perception and no feeling, but is this blissful? Are you in some state of bliss when nothing is felt or sensed? Can you explain why the cessation of perception and feeling is called blissful?
Sorry for this long introduction but i feel it is needed:
I read the sutta’s this way that the Buddha was shocked by the Truth of Suffering and probably more in general about the struggle life is. The conflicts, the violence, it almost like a battlefield. The world seems ruled by conflict and the mind of beings too. It is not very different nowadays and still people are shocked by it and wonder what is the meaning of this all? The meaning of life and when or where is the end of conflict?
A sutta says that Buddha sought a home for himself. I see this as his seach for safety, non-conflict, wholeness.
From the beginning of his search he uderstood that finding home is impossible in constructed reality , bhava. Not in this life and not after this life. Because what home is constructed, like being temporary in jhana (deva-like state) will also disintegrate. So there is no element of stability, safety, protection, home in bhave, meaning in constructed reality. How can one find a home for oneself when this home is build up and desintegrates?
I believe the sutta’s show he understood this principe allready while with his teachers. He did not find any satisfaction, any Truth, any real worth, reliablility in those temporary states of deep jhana. He did not see this as self, Truth, not refuge, safety, not as the home he sought.
I choose to believe he had allready a sense for the unconstructed reality, ultimate emptiness, Nibbana, peace, the deathless as his home. I believe he intuitively understood that this is the escape, the stable, the refuge. He abandoned all those inner forces which lead to building up (new bhava in this and future lifes). He realised the unconditioned, Nibbana, supreme emptiness, unconstructed reality, home.
He started to teach the Path to the Unconditioned, also called the Path to the stable, unailing, not desintegrating, etc.
This is my personal interpretation.
Reading the sutta’s, both EBT and mahayana, i have never got the impression that Buddha teaches that the only safety and protection and home there is, is to cease for ever. Is that a home?
That is, i find, an absurd interpretation of home, safety and protection. But not only that, I cannot see how aiming at a mere cessation can have anything to do with holiness. No vessel in my body, no spiritual gene or whatever, can see this as a holy goal or connect striving for a mere cessation as the goal of a holy life.
Yes, so the final cessation of dukkha, but as in finding home. A real refuge. The unfabricated.
I believe that the idea of being a being is only a conventional truth/idea which arises due to involvement with the khandha’s, due to identification, grasping. But where is this idea of being a being without identifying, conceiving, grasping?