I am wondering if the kind folk here have any advice on readings or meditation practices that can help me with my mindfulness and releasing my attachments involving worrying about the future. One of my hindrances is that I constantly worry about things I have to do in the future.
By way of contrast, a couple of days ago, in the afternoon, all of a sudden I started feeling light-headed and within fifteen minutes I was face down on the floor. For about two hours I was virtually immobile. I’m not sure if it was low blood sugar or perhaps exposure to the flu which prompted an immune response, but I was really out of it for a couple of hours.
In those two hours, although I felt really ill, I experienced a kind of meditative state in which the only thing that mattered was my shallow breathing. I did not think about anything. The only thing I experienced was my breath. In a weird sort of way it was incredibly liberating. All my worrying about the future disappeared. All my attachments were released. As sick as I felt, living moment to moment with only with each breath mattering was almost like a total release from everything else.
Now then, obviously I can’t induce illness just to experience freedom from suffering. So the question is, are there suttas or recommendations for meditative practice that can help me achieve the sort of mindfulness I experienced while face down on the floor for two hours without deliberately making myself physically ill? Any advice would be greatly appreciated.