Annihilation of ”mere cessation” ;)

Don’t worry about it.

We have been talking about some of this while you were away.

Perhaps these posts clear it up

There are also some post by Ceisiwr around, which i think to illuminate the point

I know reading more is probably not what you want, when having read much already to no end, but don’t give up. Take your time to understand Ceisiwr if not me.