Greetings everyone.
As we see in angulimala’s story, he was a dangerous killer and then because of Buddha’s compassion became arhat, as story goes. Based on what I have read…Killing other humans is dangerous act and retribution is either birth in lower realms of suffering or getting killed by humans many times or short lifespan in coming lives or something similar to that.
So how was he able to become arhat even after killing so many people!?
Yes he may be having past roots of good kamma which caused him to attain nibbana in this life. But what about his kamma of killing so many people? Did he experience result(vipaka) of that kamma completely as arhat in his final life or was his kamma just dissipated? Yes we read that he was wounded by stones thrown by villagers but I am not sure if that dissipated his kamma of killing so many humans!(plz illuminate me here)
My another question is that, do we experience the result of our bad karma exactly as we performed it? I mean if one has killed a person with knife so will he in turn be killed by knife in the same way or there can be different way of retribution?
I will be completely honest… in my life I have killed many insects(houseflies) with rubberband as a sport when I was child, I killed a butterfly by piercing it with needle, I have killed a frog by stomping over it because I was greatly frighteneded of it and lastly I have killed a small snake(again because of getting frightened) by using big stick to his neck. I feel terrible regret for these acts of mine☹️. I sincerely wish I never did those things. I was child when I performed those stupid acts. I have abandoned killing since then and never killed any living being till now intentionally/knowingly, instead I always try to save insects and animals whenever possible from getting killed around me. I wish to save more lives from getting killed than I have killed before my death so that my store of good kamma will be more than the bad kamma. I am sure in past lives also I may have done such killings offcourse as I was habituated about it as a child. I want to end all of my inclinations & tendencies of doing every kind of bad karma. I am sure good karma cannot neutralize bad karma and we have to experience our bad karma some day in future definitely. So I wonder how will I experience the result of such heavy bad karmas? Will it be exactly same? Or will it be in different way?
I am asking this sincerely and out of fear of bad destinies and not out of curiousity.
Thank you for taking time to read and being kind.