Good morning all,
In order to experience and internalise the basics, I am investigating the four truths from the beginning of this year, using two short books - Ajahn Sumedho’s book on the four noble truths and Bhikkhu Bodhi’s book on the eightfold path.
Regarding the second truth, I am starting to experience and see how it’s working in my own day to day life - and this is obvious whenever I’m not prepared to accept a situation or outcome for what it is - I see the grasping for something to change, for the situation to be other than what it is, see the dōsa, the aversion, and how they play with each other. During the daily sitting, some of these memories or new experiences come up and it’s an opportunity for me to look deeper.
Yet, it feels like there’s something missing from these insights, and I haven’t yet “got it” like I could directly see and experience the reality of the first truth. Reading through Bhikkhu Bodhi’s work, he talks about greed, aversion and delusion as the cause of this dukkha. Ajahn Sumedho talks about the attachment to the three kinds of desire, kāma-tanha, bhava-tanha and vibhava-tanha, as being the origin of dukkha.
So when there’s dukkha that arises, I try to see where it’s coming from, and go even deeper to try and find the root cause (avijja in theory, but I am not yet getting it.)
From the experience of others who’ve gone through a similar exercise, what worked for you, where you finally “got it”, tasted the second truth for yourself, with that unshakeable conviction founded on your own experience?
I know this is a very subjective question, so posted it in the watercooler section rather than in the other more focused sections.
Thank you all in advance, with metta & karuna from this morning’s sitting.
Sam from Singapore.