Best wishes, venerable. Change can be challenging but brings new opportunities. Lots of metta and all the good vibes, may you find a good place and be well supported.
I’d love to see more of you doodles, so please keep them coming from wherever you are!
And its good that we can keep in touch with you on D&D. Your contribution with posts like this ‘thought experiment’ was a really interesting thing for me to see and many others felt the same: Thought experiment - a genderless vinaya
Hope to hear more from you. 