Wow!
I got this thread in my inbox yesterday and wanted to respond immediately but hadn’t the time, so I came back today. Needless to say, in the interim, the thread had morphed into something else. The controversy seems to have died down, and I don’t want to stir a hornet’s nest back up again, so feel free to ignore some or all of this. Nevertheless, after reading the Ajahn Chah excerpt and the storm of comments which followed, I am left with some thoughts and a question or two:
When I left was right after Pasanna responded to the Ajahn Chah quote. I really dug what she said–wait, let me clarify that: I thought what she said was a bit one-sided, but I liked what I thought was behind it. Anyhow, I was anxious to see what would be waiting for me when I got back to the thread. I, too, wished the discussion to be more balanced, gender-inclusive, and so on; but my idea of that was that there might be some more inter-gender discussion. I was looking for more women’s voices. (I’m a man, btw.)
Honestly, I hoped I would find more women talking about negative visualization of male bodies. (Regarding the Ajahn Chah excerpt, while I did think the imagery in that specific case was weird, personally, I do see the utility in a negative visualization of what would otherwise be attractive, even if it gives rise to aversion: the Buddha does instruct us, after all, to view pleasurable feelings as painful!) Asubha has done well for me as a married man: while I am not trying for complete liberation from kama just yet, asubha has kept me from kamesu micchacara (which, judging from the world around me, is a serious danger for many!). Also, as we grow old together, asubha has allowed me to see a beauty in my wife which is certainly different from the beauty society tells me I should look for in her. I don’t know if it has decreased my lust for her, but it certainly has increased my metta (karuna, etc.) towards her. And I think the same goes for her. We point out how unattractive our bodies are becoming as we age (compared with how beautiful we [thought] we once were). Sometimes it’s of a sexual nature; and sometimes it hurts to hear. But each will definitely be compassionate because it’s mutual, and each wants some compassion from the other.
(On that note, I have noticed that, for the most part, in the EBTs, as a practice, asubha is almost always coupled with metta (Brahmavihara, appamana) practice–and probably not without good reason.)
Obviously, as a married man, for me, any effort at Brahmacariya is necessarily a team effort, and one which always involves male-female interchange. However, I think this is also important for single Brahmacari–though I think they probably lose sight of that as they are single. I’m big on the Samyoga Sutta (AN 7.51) which says that our attraction for the opposite sex is grounded in our attraction to our own bodies; and, further, that that attraction towards the other turns around and reinforces our attachment tour own sexuality. (I know people recognize more than two genders, but I don’t want to make this discussion more complicated than it already is.) And, though the sutta itself does not state this, alot of this takes place below the radar. So, no, I don’t think the lust is “all in my own mind,” rather it is the result of an interaction between the sexes in which we all play a role. As far as lust, I’d offer that we’re more “in it” than it’s “in us.” This is not called the kama-loka for nothing: it’s like a big sex soup that we’re all stewing in, and have been since before we were born (this time, at least).
That being said, it seems to me that everyone, every time, everywhere, everyone is making a sexual statement, is taking a stance on sexuality. And, with that, I don’t think that a discussion on Brahmacariya would yield as much fruit if we didn’t all participate equally in it: male, female, married, single, lay, monastic. But, perhaps, we’re not ready for that yet.
Still, though, this discussion raised some questions for me:
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what differentiates seeing the asubha (what we all agree is kusala) in something from seeing it as disgusting (what some are saying is akusala)?
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“objectifying” is a word I never completely understood; in any case, isn’t cold objectification exactly what we do alot of the time in Buddhist practices?
Again, maybe no one wants to re-open that can of worms, so go ahead and ignore those questions if you want to. But, on a more practical note:
- anyone out there trying Brahmacariya as a married couple? If you are, I’d like to hear from you, if you wouldn’t mind sharing.